I could account for much of what kept me busy. I was growing a business, hosting the show, traveling, taking calls and providing for my family. Each activity had a reason. Over time, I found it harder to connect the way I was doing all of it with the life I had wanted to build.
I was tired, and taking a break did not always change what I returned to. I could slow down for a while and then resume the same pattern. The work was still there, along with the choices I kept making about it.
From the outside, there was activity and progress. At home, the cost was easier to see. My family noticed it, and so did I in my mood and reactions, although I kept describing it as ordinary pressure.
I needed to ask what the work was serving now. Some of it still mattered deeply to me. Some of it had become difficult to question because I had already committed to it or because stepping back would challenge how I saw myself.
I still had to earn a living and keep my commitments. I also needed to ask whether the way I was working served the life I had wanted. The people affected by my choices deserved a say in that conversation.
Choose one commitment that has become difficult to explain beyond being something you have always done. What did you expect it to contribute, and what is it contributing now? The answer may help you decide what needs to continue and what deserves a different approach.