Alignment
I wanted to build a bigger life. I also had to look at what I was letting that ambition excuse.
Overwork and avoided conversations began to feel normal. I had to notice what I was accepting and what it was costing the people around me.
Nothing dramatic had happened that day. I was simply exhausted, and I had to ask why I kept treating that as proof of commitment.
The business, the show and the travel kept me busy. I had to ask how the life I was living had become so distant from the one I wanted.
I came home from a business trip and took another call. When my wife asked me to leave the room, I felt hurt before I looked at my own part in it.
I was proud of how much I could carry. Eventually I had to ask which commitments deserved the effort and which were there because I had stopped questioning them.
I was judging my family while overlooking the care they still gave me. I had work to do before asking them to trust that I had changed.